My mind is seriously like a rodent on a wheel that just spins around non-stop. I am always thinking. I would like to become one of these people that can meditate for hours on end with a still mind.
Here is a sample of my mind for about 15 seconds:
" I wonder what ever happened to DJ Jazzy Jeff. I could tear up some cheese fries. I wonder if I should learn to play the trombone. I hate it when people die...so sad. Did I put the meat in the fridge? Did I start the dryer? I wonder if we should get a puppy. I wonder if I should have another baby. I don't really like Jewel. It seems like I would like Jewel bu truth be told, I really don't. That spot on the wall drives me crazy. I wonder if I should paint this entire room."
That kind of random chatter goes on in my mind all day long. When I do yoga or try to quiet my mind it goes like this:
"Do yoga. Don't think. Just be in the moment. That spot on the wall drives me nuts. I really hate (insert so in so's name here). (Relive a moment that made me mad). I am over yoga. I want to think about stuff. This not thinking is really driving me nuts. I wonder what ever happened to Three Non Blondes."
I also most always go to the worst case scenario. Example the other day I woke up and my neck hurt. I am sure most everyone in the world would go "man I slept funny." I thought, "Oh my god I really hope this isn't meningitis."
I might have adhd....or something. I probably have something. Oh god I hope it isn't serious.
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